Going to get a little more personal here today. I shot this self portrait last week since I haven’t done that in years. I’m definitely more comfortable behind the camera, which meant it was time to confront those nervous feelings. I’m going to be completely honest here…the range of thoughts and emotions that went through me during that 30 minutes varied widely. Some thoughts congratulated my willingness to do this, while other thoughts were more negative towards my body type. Some thoughts raised me up, while others tried to knock me down. It was like I was split halfway, one part subject, one part photographer. I allowed the photographer side to take over, eased into it more, and forgot about the negatives (ugh…photographer pun not intended). My role as the photographer is to make the subject feel good (while geeking out over gear) so I did just that. This was done with a timer, so there was a lot of hopping back and forth to reset the camera and look at the shots to see what I needed to adjust. Shoulders back. Leg a little to the left. All that fun stuff I usually use to direct others. By the end, I was having fun!
Yes, I’m aware of my body type. And I don’t hate it anymore. Yes, I’m aware that dropping weight will make me healthier…I’m working on it and already feeling better. It’s been a struggle and I take full responsibility for it all. That’s not the point of this though. The point was to confront some things and I did. I don’t know what I’ll look like in a year or even three months. But this is me now. And I accept that. To all those that have wanted to try this and hesitated: don’t worry. You’re fucking fabulous 😉
Great photos. As i have frequently said, i love the interplay of light and dark in pictures. Your skin hue enabled that contrast perfectly. The slightly side-on pose reminded me of some 18th century painting poses, especially with the draped fabric. Hence i found it interesting that the head on photo, despite the same drapery, had a much more contemporary feel to it. Well done. ☺
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Thanks, much appreciated 🙂
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Utter gorgeousness! ❤
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Excellent work! One of my blogs is a collaborative project on self portraits:
https://strataoftheself.wordpress.com/
I wonder if you would give me permission to share some of your self portraits there?
Credit given, a link back to your blog, (and publicised on G+ if you’re ok with that).
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Hi, thanks, and sure, that would be lovely 🙂
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Oh, good. I’m really pleased. I’ll let you know when I post anything. Thanks for joining in. 🙂
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Undoubtedly exquisite. You are breathtaking, however your volition to be completely vulnerable is even more admirable. There are still so many who seek to possess such strength….yes, YOU are fucking fabulous! Thank you for a great post.
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Thank you so much 🙂
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Great pics and great message.
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