Freezing Nude

Here’s one of the results from the outdoor December shoot!  Believe it or not, this is in New York City…the Hudson River is to the right, and a stone wall that thankfully no one peered over is on the left.  A hidden spot in Ft. Tryon park with these wild branches.  Heather was a trooper, and before you think I’m too mean, it was 52 out…

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The Depression Project – My Naked Truth

My naked truth…

I’m going to get really naked here…I don’t mean that literally (that is several entries back), I mean I’m going to expose myself here and let you into my head.  As an introvert, this is not easy.  Tensing up….deep breath…ok, good. 

I’ve battled depression for a very long time.  Usually it rears up as part of Seasonal Affective Disorder…aka S.A.D.  (worst name ever), but this year it showed up, completely unwelcome, early summer.  Wtf, depression?  Don’t you know you’re supposed to hibernate in summer?

This past winter was actually one of my best because I had help.  No meds, no doctors office, but the support of Sunny, an amazing healer. 

I decided to start The Depression Project, a serious of self portraits to observe this more closely and track my mood.  Rules:  do it, especially if I really, really don’t feel like it.

  

Really hate letting people see my tears...
Really hate letting people see my tears…but it would defeat the purpose to exclude this one, even though I decided to go with natural light for the rest.  
Same day, take 2 with natural light
Same day, take 2 with natural light
One week later
One week later
Getting better...
Getting better…

Thankfully, after a lot of really unpleasant work on myself facing the depression head on (with more help from Sunny) I’m back on track and feeling better.  Perfect?  No.  But who is?  It can be a frustrating process, both for myself and those who only want me to feel better but can’t wave a magic wand to fix me.  No magic wands…just a lot of self exploration and support. 

Exploiting my Visitor

What happens when a chef comes to stay with me for a week?  Well, for starters, I get spoiled with amazing food, and second, I stick them in front of my camera.  Everyone gets to play with the bear sword, and the other knife adds a little badassery (is too, a word) while tying in with the chef thing.  Mmmm…chocolate coffee cinnamon pancakes…never had so much fun in my own kitchen!

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